If theres one valuable lesson I've learned in my 18 short years, it's that nothing worthing having or doing comes easy. It's applicable to so many aspects of what I do on a daily basis. This move is no different. I can't expect to learn the lessons I want to learn without facing hardship, and challenges. My first week here was no different. There were days where I wanted nothing more than to hope on a plane and fly back home, and go back to my old life, but in the back of my mind I knew I wouldn't give up on this that easily. I need to do this. I can tell I'm changing, but I also know that I'm still at the very beginning of the process. During my time here I hope to start to become the woman I want to be in the future.

This past week had it's ups and downs, but like everything else the goods and bads always balanced themselves out. I am a huge believer in fate, and I believe that the highs and lows in my life will always balance themselves out. It goes along with another belief of mine that everything happens for a reason, you can't have a rainbow without rain, just like you can't have a bad day without learning or growing from it. Homesickness has been a nagging presence in my house since I first moved in, but this week was the first week where I started to feel like Texas is my home. I really miss my family, but I'm starting to not miss the life I left behind. I've begun to move in the direction of acceptance, and by that I mean that I'm starting to find my place here. Texas is a great place to live, and I've found that the more I look the more that I see opportunities to try something new and push myself out of my comfort zone.

In just over a week I'll be going home to see my family and friends, and I couldn't be more excited. I'm also excited for them to see the changes I've undergone since being here, because I have changed. It's hard to pin point in exactly what ways, but I do feel different. I think being home will feel a little foreign at first because I'm really starting to be accustomed to my life here. I love having my own space that's for sure! Going back to a place where I have to share a bathroom, and bedroom will definitely be an adjustment, but I couldn't be more excited!